“Healing the Wound That Won’t Heal: the Reality of Trauma.” In this book I share my in-depth work to understand the psychology and neurobiology regarding trauma and neglect in the first two years of life. My father was suffering extreme shell-shock due to his WWII mission to bomb the oil refineries at Ploesti, Romania. He was too ill to care for himself: yet, I was left with him everyday as my mother worked as a waitress. When I was thirteen-months-old, he died on the floor in front of my crib in a pool of blood. Because my trauma was so early, I do not flashback to visual or audio memories. Instead, I have emotional flashback, when I am overwhelmed with feelings of terror, grief, and chaos.
In the new edition, I include a chapter about my mother. She only weighed a little over two-pounds at birth. My research has convinced me that the corpus collosum of her brain was partially or entirely missing: this is the bundle of fibers connecting the right and left hemispheres of the brain. In the movie “Rain Man” Dustin Hoffman portrays Kim Peek, who was believed to be autistic. In the 1970’s an MRI revealed that Kim was missing the corpus collosum.
Warning: please don’t offer to “fix” my infancy. Our prenatal, infant, and early childhood is what we are made of. My paradigm isn’t to heal or fix myself, but to understand, and from that, I am now whole.
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