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The Gift Within the Struggle

 

Sometimes we stumble, tumble and then lie there flat on our face whimpering for a bit. I had a moment of this last week on our family trip to Panama City Beach, Florida. I struggled a bit with being on the highway on the eleven hour drive down, being in open spaces on the beach, and trying to climb a tall white-water-rapids ride. Sometimes my trauma history sneaks up on me. Then anxiety and panic envelop my peace.

So I wallowed in self-pity for half a day and moaned about it all on a personal Facebook post. Then, I did some self-soothing, gave myself a pep talk, and pulled up my big girl pants.

I found the gift within the struggle.

A reminder to keep fighting. This is why I am writing my book. This is why the completed manuscript will be done next month. My God-nudge to keep on going. The universe held up a mirror in front of my face to say, "You can do this!"

So, I did. I made myself practice all of those coping skills I tout in my book. I faced some fears. I walked out into the water, even though I was experiencing body memory flashbacks, and I tossed lacrosse and football with my family. I sat in a beach chair without an umbrella, pushing myself a little further than I was comfortable, in order to test my resolve. I reminded myself that this book and all it promotes for healing would not be filled with positive energy if I was not actually living the words.

So, thank you, God. Thank you for challenging me. Thank you for those hurdles. Thank you for reminding me how strong I can be. Thank you for believing in me enough to nudge me forward just a little more.

Peace and blessings to you all.
Teri
www.teriwellbrock.com

 

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Roberto Rodriguez posted:

Hello Teri. Thanks for sharing this experience. I too struggled in the water due to terrifying experiences with near drowning and asphyxiation experiences. I was in a path for self-healing for 8 years before I faced my fear through a triathlon. My aunt used to say (and I included in a book) "Don't just solve the problem, unwrap the gift that comes with it!" I thought of her while reading your blog. Bravo!

Wow! Bravo to you, as well. So proud of you for facing that fear, especially in a challenging event such as a triathlon. I am in awe. Your aunt had some sage advice . . . looking for the positives in difficult situations has changed my entire perspective on life. 

Peace,

Teri

www.teriwellbrock.com

Cheryl Miranda posted:

Teri, that is so honest.  It is a struggle to get out of that stuck feeling. Feeling that one has no more energy.

Oh. God, why can't my mind be okay? 

Why do I have to pull and push out of the abyss which threatens to obliterate all my victories? 

Thank you, Teri,  for being strong and exposing your vulnerability. It gives me the courage to carry on. 

I am sending you wishes filled with peace and guidance. I have found that connecting with others through my truths has been healing in and of itself. 

Peace,

Teri

www.teriwellbrock.com

Teri, that is so honest.  It is a struggle to get out of that stuck feeling. Feeling that one has no more energy.

Oh. God, why can't my mind be okay? 

Why do I have to pull and push out of the abyss which threatens to obliterate all my victories? 

Thank you, Teri,  for being strong and exposing your vulnerability. It gives me the courage to carry on. 

Hello Teri. Thanks for sharing this experience. I too struggled in the water due to terrifying experiences with near drowning and asphyxiation experiences. I was in a path for self-healing for 8 years before I faced my fear through a triathlon. My aunt used to say (and I included in a book) "Don't just solve the problem, unwrap the gift that comes with it!" I thought of her while reading your blog. Bravo!

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